Friday, January 27, 2012

I need to make this a habit.

I am really bad at sitting down and writing each day.  I wish I had something that would help me out with that process.  But so far, I only write when it occurs to me. 

A little bit of an update to report: I started my last semester at Ivy Tech and have started to process of transferring to Indiana Tech.  I figured out that I am half way do with my Bachelor's Degree and the MBA is not as long as I thought.  So, those are very positive things.

On the weight loss front, I am doing ok.  I would not say stellar.  I did very well the first week.  Fairly well the second, but at the moment I can feel my resolve slipping.  But I want to keep plugging away.  So far I have lost 10 pounds, which I am pretty proud about.  We started with the Dukan diet, but have modified ourselves into eating healthy foods and reading labels like crazy. Dave has done a lot of nutrition research and we have begun to eliminate high fructose corn syrup and the like from our diet.  Apparently, our body transfers that right into fat.  And it doesn't know the difference between high fructose corn syrup and alcohol.  The only difference is that alcohol is metabolized in the brain while high fructose corn syrup is metabolized in the liver.  Scary to think that because I was eating so much sugar I as basically doing the same kind of damage to my body as being an alcoholic.  It does really help to have Dave cooking and helping me shop so that I don't slip into "convenient foods".  We have also started keeping a giant pot of vegetable soup in the refrigerator for those times when we need a little something.  So far, so good.  I will achieve this goal! I must achieve this goal!

The only other thing to report is Lindsay is still cheering for Holy Cross.  She has now started playing volleyball for Fort Wayne Volleyball Club, and just informed me she wants to join the gymnastics team at Holy Cross.  Looks like her schedule is going to be the tough one.
Adam is playing Freshman basketball for Concordia which takes up a great deal of time as well.  I am hoping to get Jordan into martial arts very soon.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

About to embark on a journey

I feel like since this is my first post I should introduce myself, but maybe I will just ramble on and you will get to know me as I write. 
I realized today I am about to start on a couple different journeys and I desperately want to succeed at each one.  The first one is my last semester at Ivy Tech before I transfer over to Indiana Tech to continue my quest for a MBA.  The second is finally getting down to a healthy weight.
The first one doesn't phase me too much as I have already completed my first full time semester.  My books are sitting right here at my side and I am ready to dig in with gusto.
The second one is much more scary.  I have tried to lose weight so many times and I am terrified I will fail yet again. However, I feel that somehow I am ready for this step. I am starting the Dukan diet which seems to be very doable.  I will start on Monday.  I currently weigh about 275 lbs and I would like to see 150.  That is 125 lbs to take off.  I am hoping to have lost 80 of those by the end of July.  I so desperately want to go to Midwest Geobash under 200 lbs.  I want to be able to go out there and hike with everyone and not get winded.  I want to really be engaged in my life and enjoy every minute.  Right now my back hurts, my knees hurt and I know I am on a collision course with diabetes.  I must do this.  Now is the time.  I don't want to be the fat mom picking my kid up from high school. I want to be the cool mom.  I can do this.  I didn't think I could do well last semester with full time classes and I did wonderful.  It is now time to take care of me. It is time to love me and take this bull by the horns.  It is time to take off this stupid fat suit so people can see me for who I am.